The older I get, the wiser I become

Its 11:30 on Christmas Eve. I really need to be wrapping presents. Really! But I can't go to bed tonight without getting these thoughts out. I have the opportunity to worship at a church that is so powerful it would make anyone fall to their knees. We've been there one week shy of 7 years. That's awesome to me because I know that means 7 years of spiritual growth like I've never experienced before. A couple of years ago the church knew we were outgrowing our current space so we were going to have to expand. (by the way, WOC is in the top 10% in the country of fastest growing churches) We all made financial commitments for the building of the new church so it has been something we have looked forward to. Tonight, our church had its first official service (for the exception of a baptism service which I was baptized at). How wonderful to be able to have Christmas Eve service in the new sanctuary.

On this day, I was exhausted. Stayed up late last night, been baking, cooking, shopping, cleaning, everything I was trying to avoid this late in the game. I told Rick at dinner that if it were not for having the service in the new sanctuary, it would have been very easy for me to be talked into skipping. So we go. This was the 3rd and last service for the night. I seriously thought not many would be there. I can't say it was packed, but not that many empty seats in the whole house.

The service opened up with the choir, an orchestra, these 3 drummers with these big drums where it took every muscle in their body to beat, our praise and worship team, and this awesome poem in the background. I found it on our church's website and you simply must go there now and read it. http://www.wochurch.org/PDF/WOC%20Christmas%20Poem.pdf

At this point, I was wide awake, full of tears, and realizing that this was so worth dragging my worn out self. Ten minutes into the service, I wondered why they didn't charge admission, it was that good. Please keep in mind at this point, we are so spoiled by the celebration arts team that we come to expect an awesome performance. Seriously people, they could have charged money to attend tonight. At one point in the praise and worship part, I felt sorry for Pastor Allen b/c I was thinking there's no way the sermon can be as good as this. Again, this man who is anointed by the Holy Spirit had an awesome message about how God knows how to bring his children home, whether it be to eternity, or like the prodigal son, just back to God.

On the way home, it hit me why I like Christmas Eve so much. Because by 8:30, the grocery store was closed, fast food restaurants, walgreens, even gas stations were closing. Its the only time of the year where everyone is forced to stop what they are doing and be at home with their family, unplugged from the world, getting still. I wish that our society encouraged that more like other countries do. In Spain, if you want ANYTHING during the hours of siesta, you have to wait until stores are back open. The whole country closes up just about. And then they really only reopen for a few hours. Its very typical for businesses to close at 4:00 for the day. They live in less fancier houses than we do and their cars are less fancy, but their quality of life and family time are much greater. I totally respect that and I learned a valuable lesson from that.

The older I get, the more I realize that Christmas really isn't about the gifts, and Santa, and the cookies, and the songs, and the decorations. Its about a girl who was such a humble servant of God that she said yes to something that was, well crazy to her. But she said yes anyway. Its about a God that wanted to be more intimately connected to His children, so he put himself in the flesh, in the form of a human being so he could experience what we experience. Who does that? God does. Its about a man, who modeled for us how we are to treat each other, who took the punishment for all the world, so that our sins would be forgiven. Its almost too much for me to wrap my brain around. But I'll spend the rest of my days here on this earth trying, learning what God wants me to do and to be willing to say yes.

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Wednesday, July 16, 2008
There will be videos
In today's world where the gas prices are up and the stock market is down, banks are going under, there's not too many things in life anymore that are free. I have been able to find something that's pretty close to it and I'm so excited to share this with you. Its called Movie Cube. Its just like Red Box at McDonald's except that its in Kroger's which is even better since its across the street from my house. Ever since I have found this wonderful invention I am practically addicted to it. It represents something more than just a movie for me. It is making a decision to spend time with Rick, away from the kids. Since I stay home and Rick works from home, we see each other all the time, but that doesn't mean we spend quality time together as a couple. In that respect, its just like two people who work out of the home who have to make that time.

The movies are just $1 so even if we don't think the movie is great, we don't have a lot to lose. It all started with Fool's Gold starring my sweetie pie Matthew McConaughey. That was pretty much just a reason to look at him for 94 minutes. Cute movie though. To show apprecitation to Rick for watching a chick flick, I rented American Gangster the next night, which I believe totally got shorted for Oscar nminations. This may be the best movie I have seen in a long time. Although its not a feel good kind of movie, Denzel Russell were awesome! Then came Charlie Wilson's War, an outstanding performance by Tom Hanks. Which brings me to the next movie, There Will Be Blood. Daniel Day Lewis won the Oscar for best actor for this one. I think it was soley because he had to memorize so many lines. He was the only one talking the whole movie and what kind of accent was that? Irish, English? Who knows. Rick and I are still wondering why in the heck it was called There Will Be Blood. There wasn't even a whole lot of blood in the movie. It could have been a good movie if they told it in an hour. The rest was just a waste of our time. Either way, good movie or bad movie, and even though I may fall asleep in Rick's lap during almost every movie, its still our time together that counts. There may not be blood, but there will be more videos.


Tuesday, December 25, 2007
I’ll shoot the whole family
For my brother's Christmas present, his father in law is taking him on a duck hunt on Christmas afternoon. My 4 year old neice Mabry was being told that her daddy would be leaving the family on Christmas to go hunt ducks. She said that she wanted to go with daddy. When explaining to Mabry that daddy would be killing a duck, she said "I wanna shoot a duck too Daddy." My sister in law Mitzi was quite surprised that Mabry would be interested in shooting a duck. She said "but Mabry, what if that duck's family misses him?" Mabry replied, "then I'll shoot the whole family."



Wednesday, December 12, 2007
My dream
Current mood: blissful
My dream has come true. I gave my notice at work yesterday so that I can become a stay at home mom. I can't describe the joy I feel knowing that caring for my kids and husband has become my full time job. I know it is a little 1950's ish, but that's what I feel like at this point in my life I was meant to do. The last 3 months have been bliss and I just would have hated to see that go.

On the other hand, I'm leaving not just a job, but what I have found to be my calling in life, other than being a mom. I worked with great people whom I will miss dearly. I know that I will remain in contact with them, as the work that we do bonds us extremely. I've been with DCS over 6 years. Its crazy to imagine myself not there, but I'm also very grateful to be able to share my days with my kids now. Not to mention, its just freaking fun to color, go to the park, the discovery center, and play horsey.

So for all my co-workers out there, I love you guys and carry on with the great work you all do. Its an important job and one that takes very special people. I know I will rejoin you all one day.

To my husband, I thank him for making the sacrifice that it requires for me to stay home. I've always taken responsibility for making my dreams come true, but first he gave me the two beautiful angels, and now the ability to spend my days taking care of them. There are simply no words to express my gratitude for that, so I will spend the rest of my life showing him my gratitude.


Saturday, May 05, 2007
Its a ......
Well, don't know for sure. The umbilical cord was going between the baby's legs. But, the ultrasound technician said that she did not see boy parts. We have another ultrasound on May 25 so hopefully we'll find out then. I'm almost 100% sure its a girl, because she is going to be a cheerleader if she keeps the toe touches and jumping jacks up! If it is a girl her name will be Maggie. If you have any ideas for a middle name, let me know.

Simmer down now

One of the reasons that I haven’t posted since I have started graduate school is b/c graduate school has been a little harder than anticipated. Well, maybe grad school isn’t more difficult, rather than my life surrounding it. When I was an undergrad, the only thing I had to worry about was getting myself to school and work. Nowadays, I have a husband who is helpless without me, sorry baby, but you know this to be a fact, and two children to take to school, pick up, make lunches, put down for naps, and potty train. The last one is not really that hard, just a few times a day I am reminded by my 2-year-old daughter that she really should be going to the potty and not in diapers. She is what I like to call, self potty training.

Life around here has been crazy. It took me one hour to read half a chapter for one of my classes. Not to mention my online class, oh and wait, there are the two bible study groups I’m in. When am I supposed to have time to read the books for those? Jacob is also in the process of having a few evaluations and not that I am doing the evaluations, but I am involved in them. Let’s just say housework has fallen last on the list. I am learning to re-prioritize my life.

Pastor Allen was talking one day about rest. He said there was a time in his life that he thought it was for the weak. I would agree. Then he went on to explain that rest is a biblical idea, meant for humans to have a moment to physically and mentally recover from the hard work that the week brings. I stopped and thought, you know, it is during my busiest moments that I am stressed out and that changes everything. The way I act towards my husband, which changes his day, and my children. I am not a stay at home mom so I can become a better multi- tasker. I am here to watch my children grow and have a more active part in that. Like last night when I taught Jacob and Maggie the Pharaoh song. Pharaoh, o baby let my people go, yeah yeah yeah. Now they want to sing it over and over.

I will have to re-evaluate my life at the end of the semester, but as for right now, I’m actually starting to enjoy my classes. In the meantime, I’m going to make an effort to re-evaluate my life and what things I can and can not live without (activities and possessions) for I hate clutter, whether on the outside, or inside.

Back to school week

Ok, its a long story and I don't feel like I quite know all of it, but the long and short of it is that I was accepted in the master of social work program at MTSU. I found out late last night, went to MTSU today to register, side note, I'm glad you can still go to the basement of JUB and do that in person. Those people in that office can make dreams come true, just like Disney World. Had to go to Cope and pay my bill, then go get my parking tag (what is that?) Never had one of those when I went to MTSU. To save $60 a semester I parked off campus since most my classes were in the outerskirts of campus. I am thrilled beyond words to be back at MTSU. I know this will take a lot of balancing for my family, mainly Rick. But in the long run it will be worth it. I can not wait to be stimulating my brain.

Maggie also started preschool today. I am so happy to have her back at preschool, not b/c I don't enjoy being with her. She is totally moving into a much more enjoyable phase where we play babies, dress up, and restaurant. But she needs more stimulation than I can give. It was evident this morning when we got there she acted like she didn't know who Rick and I were. We even said bye and she was like, who are you people, go. I just hope she stays out of the principal's office this year. :-)

A happy crab

It has been 3 years since I’ve been to the beach. Jacob was 9 months old and Maggie was just “a twinkle in my eye”, as my mother says. Rick and I started going to Destin the year we got married. We tried to make it a yearly thing with Rick’s parents. It was always my mother in law’s dream to have both her boys and their families at the beach. Between me and Carrie one of us was pregnant for 4 years. So it was either us or them at the beach with his parents. This was the year that we decided to all make the journey. No pregnant women and no infants in tow.

For weeks we looked for places in Destin, but had a hard time finding something that would accommodate three families, two with small children for the week we needed it in the price range we needed it. Upon a recommendation Carrie found a resort in Panama City called Splash. It is a high-rise condo with a small water park on the bottom. There are small slides for the little ones, little lagoons with streams of water coming out of the ground, a lazy river, several pools that are in the sun and shaded, and a hot tub. If none of that suits you, you can be at the beach in about 10 steps.

We were all going to leave on Saturday. Robby and Carrie, and Ramona and Dean were going to follow each other. I called Rick on Friday afternoon and told him that we were all packed and ready to go. I jokingly said we could leave now if he wanted and his reply was let him finish some things at the office and he’ll come home and pack the van and we’ll leave tonight. We left Murfreesboro by 7:00. Since we didn’t really have a plan, I suggested let’s stop around 11:00 so we can get the kids in bed. We made it just outside of Montgomery, AL. The kids were so happy to be in a hotel room and out of the car. The next morning we got up, had a great breakfast and headed to the beach. We left Montgomery around 9:30 and were at the beach by 1:00. It was a great trip down considering Maggie is not the best of travelers, but maybe she’s outgrowing it. We all got to the resort within 5 minutes of each other.

The condo is great. It’s has three bedrooms three bathrooms, a kitchen, living room and dining area. Each bedroom has its own balcony, where I’m writing my blog from. Did I mention we are on the 21st floor, the top floor? When the blimps and helicopters fly by, they are flying at our condo level. Last night some people were shooting fireworks off the beach and they didn’t even make it up to our level. There are floor to ceiling windows throughout the condo. It feels like you are flying or floating because all you see is sky and ocean for miles. When you look out the dining room window you can see our bedroom balcony. My favorite quote so far comes from my niece Dana. When she gets excited she sounds like Amy Pohler’s character from SNL where she is a 13 yr old girl and her step dad Rick. Dana said “I can see uncle Rick and he is naked!” She said this over and over until someone came and saw what she was seeing. Dana was just minding her business looking out the window and she saw Rick hanging his towel and clothes on the chairs on the balcony and he didn’t have a shirt (but he did have shorts on, she just couldn’t see).

Today we went to the beach and it was very surreal for me. Rick, Jacob, Maggie and I were building sand castles. There is something therapeutic about having your fingers in wet sand. Maggie would fill the buckets with sand while Jacob would fill his bucket with water to pack the sand. Then Rick would make perfectly formed castle towers and he even made a moat. The kids are totally loving the beach. I was kinda nervous that one of them wouldn’t like it but they love the beach more than they like the pools. I told Rick today that just a few years ago, it was just he and I at the beach, no sand buckets, arm floaties, or sippy cups.

After we brought them in and got their bellies full of lunch followed up with popsicles, or as Jacob says popsicables, we got the kids down for a nice nap. All of the adults picked a balcony and just hung out, read magazines, listened to I Pods, or me, I just sat on my lawn chair and listened to the waves crash below me. I love quiet time. Its time to reflect, and think, and also listen to God. He talks to me a lot when I get still and quiet all the things that are constantly going through my head. A private balcony on the beach 21 stories up is a great place to do that.

New chapter in my book

I knew after graduating from MTSU that I would be back in school one day. I just didn't know for what. During my time at DCS I realized that social work is what I am called to do. MTSU will start their first semester of a masters in social work program this fall. Ever since I found out that the program was being offered at MTSU that I wanted to go there. I just love MTSU and have so much pride for that school, as well as many fond memories. To be able to go back there for a graduate degree is thrilling and an honor.

All this to say, I have been putting off applying forever. I knew it would be a lengthy process and Maggie and Jacob do not like when I am on the computer so I usually am only on here in the morning, during nap time, or when they are in bed. I know, I can't constantly blame my kids for everything I don't get done. I will mostly blame my procrastination.

I woke up yesterday (june 1) with an urging sense to start the application process. I woke up early, as did Jacob. I had to get him settled upstairs with breakfast and some PBS kids. Thank you super why! I got online to submit my application and I noticed the deadline for submitting applications was June 1. HOLY COW! Nothing like waiting until the last minute, huh?

I started thinking of everything that I was going to have to do in lightening speed time to get my application in and I got so overwhelmed. I haven't even taken the GRE. I thought to myself, when am I going to have the time to study for the stupid thing. Then I thought, if you can't study for that, how are you going to study for your classes? What was I thinking? Why didn't I do this before I had kids??? These thoughts turned into, do I even want to be a social worker. I had so much self doubt that took over.

Then I talked to a few friends, one who told me that she didn't even study for the GRE. I looked at some sample questions like she suggested and I got all of them right and I wasn't even reading the questions. I will be sure to do that the day of the real test. Or maybe that will confuse me.....I also had to submit some essays as to why I am pursuing a career in social work and my background. The other one was about a social problem and I had to explain the complications to addressing the problem. When I was an undergrad, I tried so hard just to get by. For example, if I was writing a paper that had to be 5 pages, I didn't care if I was mid sentence, when I got to 5 pages I just put a period at the end of the sentence and I was done. As I was writing one of my essays I found myself going on and on about the transition for prisoners who are released into the free world. I had to condense my some of my thoughts because I was going to go over. Being a stay at home mom and dealing with a one and three year old day in day out, I imagine that when my mind thought the word recidivism there must have been dust flying all around my brain as it recalled the word and its meaning. It was as if a lamp was turned on inside me. I am doing something for myself and it feels so good. I love school. I love learning, especially about things I'm interested in. My attitude that started out so defeated quickly turned to excitement.

It will be a while before I know if I'm accepted into the program. So for now all I can do is pray and know that God brought me this far, I bet he can slide my name on the list. Because I waited so long my name will probably go on a waiting list and hope that someone who got accepted chose another school to go to. I really hope my trusty old orange back pack that Marcie got me gets to be dusted off and used again soon! If I take two classes a semester, I will graduate as Maggie goes into kindergarten. Perfect timing! There is so many things I will be able to do with this degree. I can work in a hospital, drug treatment facility, do counseling, go back into foster care, so many things. My future is so bright, I've got to wear shades.

New preschool for JT

As many may know, Jacob has a language delay and is already apart of the Rutherford County School System because he receives speech therapy there. We already have IEP meetings which is funny to me for a 3 yr old. We had our second IEP meeting this week to determine if Jacob would be going to the preschool at Barfield Elementary. He attended a mother's day out preschool this past year and although I loved the program and I think Jacob had fun, I don't think it fully met his individual needs. The preschool at Barfield will work on the things Jacob needs help with. Ironically, Jacob knows all his shapes, colors, letters, capital and lower case, and can spell his name, and is even learning to write his name. The part he has trouble with is listening and understanding directions. He has trouble processing things in his head. Like his speech therapist said, its like we're all speaking Japanese to him. So he has to be taught to understand language and how to use it.

I think it will be good for him to go to preschool that can help him learn these things. He will go 5 days a week. Also, when it comes time for kindergarten, it won't be a new place for him. Kindergarten is so hard for me to realize that its right around the corner. When I think about Jacob, I think about him being a newborn, not a preschooler. How did he grow up so fast. Then I think about my mom, does she look at me the same way and now I'm 32 with my own kids? I feel like I need to hold on to every moment that goes by. Like today when Jacob needed me to hold him before he laid down for a nap. I thought to myself, there will be one day when I just wish that I could hold that little boy again. He still needs him momma, and one day he won't need me. Sometimes I'm afraid it will happen so fast and poof, it will be over, my time with them. Its the reason that I'm most grateful to be staying home with them. I know it means sacrificing a little bit, but its something that money can't even come close to buying.

Resurection Sunday

This is the house that is 3 doors down from the Soks. If you look at the front of the picture you will see shrubs and the walkway that used to lead to their front door. Notice where the house is in the backyard. It was picked up and scattered.


This is the crawl space that Wayne's parents got in to seek safety. They were in their back yard garden when they saw it.

Memories from someone's life now scattered about.

Looks like a little princess lived here.

This was 2 doors down from the Soks.

Next door neighbor's car.

Next door to the Soks.

This a picture of across the street from the Soks.

This is the bunny bread truck that we gained access to in order to remove the contents of the Soks home. Don't ask questions how we got this truck and I'll tell you no lies.

Ironically it was 10 or 11 Easters ago that I was having Easter lunch at the Soks house. We hid eggs in their yard. They made us their famous "Sok spaghetti." I was introduced to the cherry wine that his parents made from the cherry tree in the front yard. They poured it in a shot glass. I was in college then and there was only one thing you did with a shot glass. You shoot it. Apparently you were supposed to sip it. Heathen.

On this Easter, 2009, I was helping them take their belongings from 22 years and box them up. I wish I could tell you how amazing their whole family is, how both their sons are war heroes. They are what you call "good people." Yet on this day, they were just another tornado victim, forced to push their emotions aside and try to figure out what to do, what to leave and what to take, and where to go. Their back yard almost touches the back yard of the mother and infant who were killed in the storm.

When you stand and look at the scene around, you realize in one second how powerful God is. That he created something that could do so much damage, and how he whispered on that day for so many people in Victoria Park to not go home. Had most of the people in that neighborhood been home, they wouldn't have survived, there's no doubt. Had Wayne's parents been 3 doors down, there was no crawl space left.

Living in today's world where we are so used to having anything and everything we want at our fingertips, its sobering just how much can be taken from you and made you to feel almost like a third class citizen. No electricity, no running water, police not allowing you to your home. Having to depend on people you don't even know to help you.

Although the friends who we bumped into yesterday and today don't keep in touch often, its a reminder of how strong friendships once were and are not forgotten easily.

When we got home and unloaded the truck in our garage, I went inside to see the kids. I took great pleasure in putting their pajamas on and rocking them to sleep in their own rooms, in their own beds, listening to soft lullaby music. So thankful that they are my children, and I am their mom, and I get to spend another day with them.

Good Friday, Bad Friday

Wayne, this is your parent's porch

across the street from the Soks

I believe that is someone's kitchen

This is the side of the Soks house

The Sok's house

It all started out as a normal Friday, except Rick was off work and we planned to take the kids to the Discovery Center. We got there about 11:45 and had packed the kids lunches and were going to eat there. When we got upstairs I noticed that the train table that Jacob so loves was gone. We played up there for a bit and then I headed down stairs to see where the train table was. I asked the lady at the front desk as she was getting off the phone, "Where's the train table?" She said it was broken and being fixed. Then she said, ma'am you need to take your children and take cover at the back of the center because a tornado is heading for Murfreesboro."

We went to the back and the kids didn't really know what was going on. All the parents tried to keep everything as normal as possible for them. We fed the kids lunch and that's when the lights went out and I think the storm was hitting. We had no cell service but I was able to make a call to my sister and mom to let them know where we were in case something happened, someone needed to know we weren't home. I was able to call my friend Brandi to ask what was going on b/c we didn't know anything. She was telling me what the news said about the different storms hitting Mboro.

After it went through, a lady from the discovery center said that the storm has passed, there's another one coming so if anyone wants to leave, you need to do it now. Without thinking we grabbed the kids and left and drove home in the loudest hail and rain, and a green sky. The clouds were so scary, it looked like they were dancing. Jacob kept telling me to turn it off b/c the sound was so loud. We made it home and I just broke down and cried when we walked in the door. My brother had just called and that probably freaked him out b/c all I could do was cry. Being in a storm is so different when you have kids who are relying on you to keep them safe, but in a storm like that, you can't ensure safety.

We have several friends who's houses are destroyed. This morning my curiosity got the best of me and we headed out with a video camera and digital camera. Once we got into neighborhoods that had been hit, I didn't have the heart to take pictures of homes where the people are standing in what was their yard yesterday morning and now is a graveyard of their memories. We somehow made it into a neighborhood where my friend's parents live. They were only letting residents and officials in but I guess we made it down a side road. I wanted to check on the Soks to see if they were ok and I couldn't even recognize the streets. The houses were on small lots and when you looked around what once was about 20 houses on this block was now about 10.

Close to this is where the two deaths occurred. A mom and her 9 week old daughter. I am just thankful that is the worst b/c when you look at these houses you would have to wonder how people made it out ok. I can only imagine how scared my friends parents were as the tornado went over there house and ripped part of the outside wall off. You could see straight in their attic. Then 3 houses down, all there was, was a foundation, the shrubs around the house, and that's it. I don't know where their house it. Then the house across the street was literally a pile of 2x4s.

The good thing about all this was the community that showed up to help. There were lots of people handing out food and water. I saw some friends of mine from college who were fraternity brothers of Wayne's. I don't even think they called to see if help was needed. They just knew where Wayne's parents lived and one of them bought a chain saw and headed over there. Amazing spirits we all have when the need arises.

The destruction is so much more devastating when this is the town you live in and know like the back of your hand. These people are neighbors, we go to church with them, we work with them, we are friends with them. They need us more than they ever have before and we need to be there with what ever we can do. It renews my faith in people. I was prepared to drop Rick off and let him help, but they said that they almost had too much help. So we're going to check in with them next week after all the help is gone and everyone goes back to their normal lives.

Obviously these pictures don't do it justice.

Road trip

Rick and I decided to take a mini vacation, just the two of us. He's been needing some down time and let's face it. going on vacation with a 1 yr old and 3 yr old, isn't exactly a vacation. So we needed to pick some place close to Rick's parents since that was who was going to keep them while we were gone. So we picked Atlanta because I told Rick that I had never been there before.

So Wednesday we headed to Cleveland and stayed the night with Rick's parents. Then got up the next morning and headed to Atlanta. On the way there we stopped at furniture stores in Dalton, as we are in the market for bedroom furniture. We finally made it to Atlanta and checked into our room. It was awesome. The Hyatt was about two years old and was very modern. Rick picked the hotel room and I have to say he did a good job.

We didn't want to make a lot of plans. Just kinda wanted to hang out. Good thing because the folks in Atlanta said that's the most rain they've seen in years that week. Go figure. We did make it down to the Varsity. The Varsity is a local restaurant right next to Georgia tech that is known for its chili cheese dogs. I'm not a big fan of chili cheese dogs so I had a burger. It was a burger. Nothing to write home about. But the orange icy with vanilla ice cream, who created that? Genius. Yummo.

Next we went to Ikea and filled our carts yet again

and spent under $100. Love that store.

Later that night we went to dinner at Maggiano's.

Yes, Nashville has one but we never go to West

Nashville and I have always wanted to go. Then

we went to a movie and say I Love You Man. That is up on my top 10 funniest movies ever.

On Saturday we took a tour of the Coke Museum. It was nice, but I have to say that you have to really like Coca Cola to go there. Remember when they changed the formula to coca cola and called it Coke. That lasted 72 days before people were protesting about it. At the end of the tour we got to sample 64 different drinks from around the world. Sounded fun but it made me very sick from drinking too much sugar. I have to say, I like just good old plain coca cola.

Later that night we met up with one of my BFFs from college, Kristie Burton (now Cintron). We went to The Cheesecake Factory and had a great time catching up with our friends. That's when I remembered, Oh yeah, I have been to Atlanta when Dave and Kristie got married so this would be my second trip to Atlanta. We basically talked about our kids the whole time and followed up that conversation in the parking lot by comparing our mini vans. Oh yes we did!

After that we met up with Rick's friend from Cleveland, Shawna, and her husband. It was great for Rick catching up with a friend that he has had since middle school. We stayed out later than we probably have in YEARS. I think we got home at 2:00. That's really late for us.

We got up Sunday morning and headed back to Cleveland to pick up our little munchkins, whom we missed so much. We realized that kids really do put stress on a marriage. Without them for 3 days we were so thoughtful and kind to each other. Where do you want to go eat honey, anywhere you want baby. On the way back home we talked about how we need to get better about working as a team when it comes to the kids. We are starting a new bible study called Growing Kids God's Way and we're hoping that will assist us on getting us on the same page. The other lesson we took from our trip is that we need more alone time together and we are going to try to make this a yearly thing.

Hello Kate

I was introduced to Jon and Kate plus 8 when Maggie came along. A friend of mine suggested that I watch it if I feel overwhelmed with just two. Since then, my mantra has become "if Kate can do it with 8 I can do it with 2!" I love the show and my husband accuses me of being obsessed with it.

My friend Katie entered a contest online to win a chance to get tickets to the Southern Women's Show where Kate would appear and a grand prize winner would get to meet her. Katie and I made an aggreement that if either of us won, we would take the other. Well, Katie won VIP seats to see her, but not the chance to meet her. So we headed down to the Nashville Convention Center 45 minutes before the show like we were supposed to and every seat in the place was filled. Apparently Katie and I aren't the only fans of the show. These people had been camped out all day. There was a miscommunication with the show and there were no seats reserved. We were furious. They told us that they would send the winners a signed copy of the book but sorry, basically. Well, Katie did get to go back stage and meet Kate but she said Kate was in a bad mood so she didn't say anything to her.

Kate came out and answered questions that the audience had. Some questions were

• When the cameras are off do you spank? Yes, she and Jon believe in spanking for certain things. I was disturbed when the audienced cheered. I mean, did that really need applause? "yeah, she beats her kids!"




• Does Jon work outside the home? Jon works from home and is currently working on a spin off of Jon and Kate plus 8.




• Where do you get your clothes? Ann Taylor Loft




• Any new books coming out? Yes, 8 little faces is coming out in a week or so, and one will be released in the fall that has recipes in it. YES!




• Are you going back to work when the kids go to school? No, the kids are starting Jr Kindergarten this year. What is that???

Katie and I got separated during the show and the people who she won the tickets with said that they were going to let the winners only get their books signed by her. I snuck in that line behind Katie and got mine signed too. She is beautiful in person although she had stripper shoes on. Weird. Very tan and skinny. When I got up there to meet her I told her to tell Jon Happy Birthday. My bday is the day before his but in my star stuck-dom I told her we had the same birthday???? His is April Fools day so she said, "oh you're a joke too?" I can't believe I met her today. Thank you Katie (Isaacs not Gosselin)

Going to the Rodeo

Rick and I took the kids to the Lone Star Rodeo in Murfreesboro last weekend. I am the fartherst thing from a cowgirl but I love the rodeo for some reason. I really want to expose my kids to different things. We took them to the girls MTSU basketball game a few weeks ago and Jacob has been talking about it ever since. So you never know when you may spark an interest in them that will turn into a lifetime hobby or even a career.

As soon as we got into the arena we found some really good seats and as we sit down a little boy screams out, "JACOB!" We look over and there is one of Jacob's best friends from Trinity. They played off and on throughout the night.

As I was sitting there watching the bronco riding, barrell racing, calf roping, I began wondering....How did the sport of rodeo get started? These men could do amazing things with their rope. Then I realized that men back in the day when rodeo was started weren't not all that much different then men today. "Hey Billy Bob, I bet you can't tie that calf up in less than 10seconds." "Shoot boy, give me 5 seconds. "

Overall I think the kids liked the rodeo. I'm sure we will go back next year. I'm not so sure that I want Jacob to love it all that much. Some of the guys got stomped on by the bulls and that didn't look so good. Especially not for their mommas in the crowd. I can see me now, jumping over the fence and taking on a bull b/c it stomped my baby.

All things digital

I am a die hard journaler. That's what bloggers did before there were blogs! My first journal was when I was 13 or 14. I still have it and found it recently. It is amazing to look back and see what my thoughts were back then. A common worry in my journal back then is that I hoped to turn out "normal." Those of you who know me I had, for the most part, a normal childhood, unless there are some repressed memories that haven't surfaced yet! But its funny that I always wanted normalcy. Don't we all?

So even though I still have my hard copy journal, there are some things that I want to share publicly b/c I find that's how we as humans grow, by sharing common experiences and to know that we really aren't out here alone. Because I am a stay at home mom of two young kids, that's what most of this will be about b/c that's my reality. Not to say that I don't have adult thoughts or conversations, but I am learning so much through raising my children. Its an amazing journey.

So take this journey with me. Welcome to my blog.